Today, I wish all of my anxiety was visible. I wish that everyone could see it. I wish I had a little speech bubble above my head, giving a running commentary of the thoughts going through my mind. How fast they go, how many times I tell myself the same thing, how I ignore them,... Continue Reading →
Pushing through the weekend!
Friday Anxiety started to creep in... I was leaving for the weekend to attend a country music festival. That I also attended last year. The thoughts that bounced around in my head sounded like this... "I can't do this" "I don't want to go" "I should just stay home" "I never should... Continue Reading →
Every day battle
As someone who has lived with anxiety and depression for years now, sleep is a very interesting and difficult aspect of my life. I don't know what normal sleeping habits are ... I wish I had them. I find, some nights, both my mind and my body fight the urge to fall asleep. Racing thoughts... Continue Reading →
The girl I thought I lost
I've been wanting to blog but simply couldn't get the words in my head to make sense on here. I promise to write more. Last week I saw my psychiatrist for the first time in 6 months. It was a beautiful sunny day, which I thought was rather fitting. I've been seeing my psychiatrist for... Continue Reading →
Excuses, excuses.
As a person who has general anxiety disorder and depression I find myself apologizing a lot. "Sorry I'm going to be late, I couldn't decide what to wear..." "Sorry, I don't think I can make it today. I'm having a really bad day..." "I'm so sorry I couldn't make it..." "Sorry, I'm a hot mess... Continue Reading →
A whole lot of anxiety and not enough sleep
All week I've been having really crazy dreams and even a few nightmares. I couldn't tell you how many times I woke up drenched in sweat and genuinely afraid of whatever I was dreaming about. I can't figure out why this has been going on this week but it's been draining me, mentally. I haven't... Continue Reading →
A look into an anxious mind
*Sunday April 29th 2018* I knew the signs all too well. I felt them the moment I opened my eyes this morning. I mumbled a couple of swear words and got up out of bed. Fast forward two hours and next thing I knew I was curled up in a ball in my bed and... Continue Reading →
Hard work pays off
I was in desperate need of a sign. Something, somewhere, to give me hope. I was starting to doubt the decisions I have made. But today, it all came together. I found out that I got accepted to university. (insert insane happy dance here) I start in September. My hard work has paid off. All... Continue Reading →
Hiding behind a mask
"Wait...you have depression and anxiety?????" "I never would have thought that." "You hide it so well." I've had this "mask" for 9 years now. Sometimes I wear it a lot, and other times I don't touch it for weeks. I'll describe it to you as best as I can. I'm smiling, I've got makeup on... Continue Reading →
Heart and soul
I pour my heart and soul into each blog post. I often cry while writing them, depending on the topic. But I want you to understand that everything I write about is real...everything I write about is from a past experience or something I am currently going through. I'm sick and tired of living in... Continue Reading →
Conquering Mind Madness 
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