I tossed and turned most of the night and I finally gave up on sleep around 4:30 a.m. There is just too much anxiety running through my body, I can feel it in my chest, and in my legs. My hands are shaking as I type this and I'm trying to blink away my tears.... Continue Reading →

I realized the other day, how much I have grown and how far I have come. How quickly I can identify my feelings and know when I need some peace and quiet. I know when I need extra time, more love, a good cry, a power nap or sappy country music. It hasn't always been... Continue Reading →

2018...you beautiful, difficult, heart breaking and loving year. It's been real. A year full of triumphs, success, heartache and loss too. This time last year I said 2018 was going to be my year, and I truly believe it was. This past year I pushed myself to go out of my comfort zone...quit my job... Continue Reading →

Sundays have been notoriously hard for me. A brand new week just about to start, where will it take me...where will I go? My mind wishes I had a crystal ball...so I could look into the future to prepare myself for whatever I might face. (And in my head the possibilities are endless). Because god... Continue Reading →

I had a really good day this week. Smiling was constant and laughing was effortless. And I wish I could live like that every day. Where the battle I fight is small and things are just easy. Getting out of bed isn't a struggle and my anxiety is at a minimum. I dream for that... Continue Reading →

It became apparent to me during my CBT sessions that I hold myself to ridiculously high standards. Looking back now, I realized that I've done this since I was in elementary school. Standards and expectations that are so high I subconsciously know that I will NEVER meet them. You may wonder why on earth I... Continue Reading →

Sunday October 21st 2018... I could tell you I've been feeling good, but I'd be lying.  I could tell you I've been trying my best and that's the truth.  I wish I could put it into words exactly what has been hanging over my head. But I'll try my best to describe it. It was... Continue Reading →

This past weekend was Thanksgiving, and I have so much to be thankful for. Holidays can be tough for people like me. The constant travel and socializing can be exhausting.  But I got to spend the weekend with those I love the most. A wonderful family lunch Saturday and then off my sister and I... Continue Reading →

Anxiety...you souling sucking, loud, exhausting, pain in my ass. You've been especially bad the last 24 hours and I wish I could put my finger on why. Why you have me second guessing every gosh darn decision I've faced today? Why you are trying to make me dread tomorrow? Why do you have my emotions... Continue Reading →

My first day of classes went super well!!! A few hiccups but I stuck with it and figured it out. I feel like I'm in the right place... of course I'm still nervous. This week will be my first full week of classes, so I'll finally be able to get into a routine again.  Insomnia,... Continue Reading →