Lately I feel like I’ve been on a nonstop roller coaster ride. Feeling it in my stomach and my chest. The pressure, the speed and the twists and turns. It’s a ride that I can’t seem to get off of. Just when I thought I had the track figured out, it has suddenly changed. I’m praying I don’t fall off.
I haven’t been my usual self lately. I’ve been dealing with a lot more anxiety in the past few weeks than I have in the most recent months. Everything seems to be moving super fast… I don’t even know where the summer went. It’s like I blinked and it was gone. Before I know it school will be here and I’ve hardly even had a chance to think about it! I guess half of me is okay with that because I don’t have the time to over think it, but the other half of me feels so unprepared. (Worst feeling ever) My job has kept me extremely busy and it’s totally rewarding, but by Friday night I’m completely exhausted.
It’s the end of the summer… which means two more weeks of work. I find myself taking more time to myself because I can feel how tired my body is. Using the tools I learnt in CBT to help myself cope and prepare. It’s totally crazy how I use these tools and tricks without even realizing it anymore. My anxiety has kept me in my comfort zone lately (when I’m not at work). Over thinking and questioning everything.
This roller coaster ride is one that I don’t know when it’ll stop or where. But I’m doing my best to hold on.
P.s. I don’t even like roller coasters.