What do you do when you’re curled up under your weighted blanket and you’re waiting for your phone to notify you that you got a message? What do you do when that doesn’t happen? What do you do when you decide to be vulnerable and tell someone that you’re struggling? What do you do when... Continue Reading →
More Than My Illness
February…I hope you are better than January. In January I struggled a lot. My anxiety was a lot, it was intense, it was heavy. I felt like I was walking through thick mud, that every step I tried to take was difficult…a struggle. The anxiety I was dealing with was at times so intense that... Continue Reading →
The Rebuild – part 1
Here I am. It is Saturday night. My phone is quiet, I’m watching the Toronto Raptors play the Golden State Warriors on TV and listening to music. My parents have to listen to me typing, singing and yelling at the TV. But this is nothing new. This is one of my happy places. It... Continue Reading →
More Than One Battle
Where doing I start? It's been too long since I sat down and just wrote. There are so many things I want to tell, but some things I'm not ready to share. This past year has been one like no other. My Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer last September. A fight against cancer is... Continue Reading →
A little bit of hope
Living with mental illness has taught me a lot. Some good and some not so good. I have come to the sad realization that my depression can trick me into thinking that I am unlovable. That I am not worthy of being loved by myself or others. My very own nightmare. (I do realize that... Continue Reading →
Lonely, anxious & a bit depressed
Alone. It can be one of the worst places to be. With my thoughts. The bad ones. The negative ones. The ones I don’t like. The ones I would never ever say to anyone else. But they run through my head like it’s their day job. How do you describe an illness that you live... Continue Reading →
Brutally Honest
Living with anxiety and depression, life can seem to pass by extremely quick or extremely slow. Depending on which mental illness is at the forefront of my fight that day. I think it is hard for some people to understand that I live with BOTH illnesses every day. Good days are great but that doesn’t... Continue Reading →
Broken
I have been fighting with myself about if I was going to write this or not. If you are reading this that means I wrote it and shared it. First, I want to say that I will be talking about a serious mental breakdown and self-harm. If you find either of those triggering, please stop... Continue Reading →
The Consistent Struggle
I’ve learned over the years that for me to be at my best, to deal with my anxiety in the best way possible, I need consistency. Yes, I know that I can’t have consistency 100% of the time, because life is well life. And anything can change at any moment in time. COVID has forced... Continue Reading →
Answering That Daunting Question
It is a sunny but chilly Sunday. The hope for Spring is in the air, the birds are chirping, and the sky is a wonderful shade of blue. In September 2020, my Mom found a lump in her breast. Life as my family knew it was turned upside down. It was breast cancer. Shit… I... Continue Reading →
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