Words… We use them every day, in one way or another. They can be beautiful and heartfelt, or they can be debilitating and cruel. They have different definitions, are spoken in different languages, mean different things to different people. Words have become such a big part of who I am today and how I express... Continue Reading →
Today my anxiety looked like…
Today my anxiety manifested as anger. I’m having a bad brain day. I want today to be over and tomorrow to be here. I’m annoyed, frustrated, angry, anxious, and confused. I want to scream; I want to yell. I want to cry until there are no tears left. I’m angry at my anxiety which also... Continue Reading →
Anxiety = A tangled mess
I’ve been scrambling around the house for an hour and a half…doing laundry, cleaning up, trying to organize things. Because when my anxiety is getting bad, out of control, high, loud, unbearable…whatever the heck you want to call it, I have coping mechanisms. I clean the bathroom, I do laundry, I refold towels in the... Continue Reading →
Extra feelings
I’m the type of person who feels A LOT. I’m an emotional person, wear my heart on my sleeve, cry at sappy movies and TV shows, what I’m trying to say is that it doesn’t take much to make me tear up. I’ve been called soft, asked to just get over it, told to push... Continue Reading →
Scrambled
I wish there was a switch or an on/off button or an intensity dial. Because today I’d hit that switch, push that on/off button and turn the dial all the way down. Words seem to come easy to me. I remember in high school having random thoughts, feelings and sayings scribbled throughout my student planner.... Continue Reading →
Uncharted waters
I’m in uncharted waters with no map to guide me. Facing an unknown storm with no end in sight. I didn’t think feeling this much anxiety was possible. But it’s there every morning I wake up and every night when I go to bed. Usually I can deal with it and get a break from... Continue Reading →
Today
Today is going to be a day…I can already tell. My body is tense, my head feels cloudy, I’m waiting for the tears to fall. I want them to fall, I want to scream. Yet, I sit here feeling almost numb. Numb because my brain is trying to push away my anxious thoughts, to hide... Continue Reading →
The new “normal”
I know it has been awhile but trying to gather my thoughts and writing them down has been a bit of a mess. Dealing with SO many new emotions, it has been hard for me. My own general anxiety that I have lived with for years, can be debilitating. But I never imagined I'd be... Continue Reading →
A real honest look inside
Do you know what it’s like to feel like you’re not good enough? That no matter what you do it won’t be enough. YOU won’t be enough. That so many people have left your life with no explanation that you get used to it. You get used to being forgotten about. You get used to... Continue Reading →
Anxiety is a part of me
Tears running down my face. You know the ones that mark your sweater with black dots because you thought it would be a good idea to wear mascara today. They leave a trace of black specks down your cheek because you thought you could hold it together today. But now your eyelashes are all clumped... Continue Reading →
Conquering Mind Madness 
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