Humboldt Broncos heartache

This post is different from my usual mental health blogs but it's about something very important to me. (So please keep reading) - Hilary   Friday April 6, 2018… the Cambridge Ice Hounds had arrived in Rochester, New York. It’s a trip we have been talking about all season long. 28 of us…players, parents, guardians,... Continue Reading →

Hard work pays off

I was in desperate need of a sign. Something, somewhere, to give me hope. I was starting to doubt the decisions I have made. But today, it all came together. I found out that I got accepted to university. (insert insane happy dance here) I start in September. My hard work has paid off. All... Continue Reading →

Hiding behind a mask

"Wait...you have depression and anxiety?????" "I never would have thought that." "You hide it so well."  I've had this "mask" for 9 years now. Sometimes I wear it a lot, and other times I don't touch it for weeks. I'll describe it to you as best as I can. I'm smiling, I've got makeup on... Continue Reading →

Heart and soul

I pour my heart and soul into each blog post. I often cry while writing them, depending on the topic. But I want you to understand that everything I write about is real...everything I write about is from a past experience or something I am currently going through. I'm sick and tired of living in... Continue Reading →

Anxiety. Sucks.

Today, I woke up with anxious thoughts looming over my head. I tried my best to push them aside but they came back just as quickly as they had left. Today, would be a fight. I desperately tried to put a smile on my face when I went to pick up my Mom. But as she... Continue Reading →

Sunday Thoughts 3.0

It's been awhile...life has been eventful and hectic. I think everything is finally catching up to me and I'm starting to panic. Last week, I struggled a lot. Every night after work, I had somewhere to be. I had something to do. Even thinking about it now, makes me tired. My anxiety beat me once... Continue Reading →

Falling into place

Today was one for the books. Woke up at 3:15 am...wide awake...I've been up ever since.  I had an appointment with my psychiatrist this morning, and I was counting down the minutes at work this morning because I was so excited. I hadn't seen him in 6 months!!! He asked me how I was doing...and... Continue Reading →

Real thing

Anxiety is real.  Depression is real.  To those of you who don't believe me, I wish you could have my brain for 24 hours. Today would have been a perfect day for it. I woke up and immediately knew it was going to be a struggle. I could feel my body screaming at me to... Continue Reading →

Craving change

Today has been a struggle. I'm fighting a stomach bug and just when I thought I had beat it, it came back. I've always been putting other people's needs before my own. It is completely exhausting to try to do so. I've decided to change, and I'm putting myself first. So now... I have to... Continue Reading →

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