*Sunday April 29th 2018* I knew the signs all too well. I felt them the moment I opened my eyes this morning. I mumbled a couple of swear words and got up out of bed. Fast forward two hours and next thing I knew I was curled up in a ball in my bed and... Continue Reading →
Hard work pays off
I was in desperate need of a sign. Something, somewhere, to give me hope. I was starting to doubt the decisions I have made. But today, it all came together. I found out that I got accepted to university. (insert insane happy dance here) I start in September. My hard work has paid off. All... Continue Reading →
Hiding behind a mask
"Wait...you have depression and anxiety?????" "I never would have thought that." "You hide it so well." I've had this "mask" for 9 years now. Sometimes I wear it a lot, and other times I don't touch it for weeks. I'll describe it to you as best as I can. I'm smiling, I've got makeup on... Continue Reading →
Heart and soul
I pour my heart and soul into each blog post. I often cry while writing them, depending on the topic. But I want you to understand that everything I write about is real...everything I write about is from a past experience or something I am currently going through. I'm sick and tired of living in... Continue Reading →
Anxiety. Sucks.
Today, I woke up with anxious thoughts looming over my head. I tried my best to push them aside but they came back just as quickly as they had left. Today, would be a fight. I desperately tried to put a smile on my face when I went to pick up my Mom. But as she... Continue Reading →
Today is a day I soon won’t forget
It started with a simple "are you okay?" ... and I knew the flood gates had opened. I've been hiding my feelings for a while now. You know the ones that are kept deep down in your soul? You've hidden them there so you don't have to deal with them. Because the pain of dealing... Continue Reading →
Falling into place
Today was one for the books. Woke up at 3:15 am...wide awake...I've been up ever since. I had an appointment with my psychiatrist this morning, and I was counting down the minutes at work this morning because I was so excited. I hadn't seen him in 6 months!!! He asked me how I was doing...and... Continue Reading →
Real thing
Anxiety is real. Depression is real. To those of you who don't believe me, I wish you could have my brain for 24 hours. Today would have been a perfect day for it. I woke up and immediately knew it was going to be a struggle. I could feel my body screaming at me to... Continue Reading →
Craving change
Today has been a struggle. I'm fighting a stomach bug and just when I thought I had beat it, it came back. I've always been putting other people's needs before my own. It is completely exhausting to try to do so. I've decided to change, and I'm putting myself first. So now... I have to... Continue Reading →
Look back at 2017
2017 recap... I'm not really sure where to start. 2017 was one hell of a year for me. I began a truly wonderful journey in regards to my mental health. I started seeing a psychiatrist and shortly after that I began Cognitive Behaviourial Therapy. Both have already worked wonders and I look forward to continuing... Continue Reading →
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