Sundays have always been tough for me. Especially Sunday nights…I find myself thinking about all the things I have to accomplish in the week ahead. I have learned through my CBT to be extra gentle with myself on Sundays. I let myself feel whatever I may be feeling and don’t over analyze any of it. I take the time to do the things I want to do.
I went bridesmaid dress shopping today for a wedding I’m in, in June. There were mirrors everywhere and I had the wonderful pleasure of having my measurements taken. This is not my first bridesmaid dress shopping experience. If I had my measurements taken 6 months ago, I can guarantee you that I would have been self-conscious and anxious. But through my CBT I’m learning how to be easier on myself instead of holding myself to unrealistically high standards. So there I was, enjoying myself and not feeling bad about my body. It was truly a day I won’t forget.
I’ve spent the rest of my day watching Law and Order SVU, sleeping and reading. Taking it as easy as I can, while I have the time to do so. I don’t know what the week will bring, or where it will take me…and that’s okay. Yes, my anxiety is high today but I know I can handle anything life throws at me this week.