A battle against mental illness. One day at a time.
I want to start writing again... more often... but I am having a really hard time starting. What do I talk about? Is anyone actually going to read this? Does it sound like I am just re-telling the same story over and over? I have no idea... but let's giver a shot. Here we go...... Continue Reading →
2024… you damaged me, healed me, confused me and pushed me… I remember the day I looked in the mirror and did not recognize the person looking back at me. I was shopping for a new outfit for a date. It was January. How did I get to that place? How did I let myself get so... Continue Reading →
I lost myself. Almost completely. I was lost, in this darkness, with no map or compass to help guide me through. No light for me to follow. Everything I thought I knew, I questioned. I second guessed myself. Doubt was created by others, and it was repeated to me so many times that I started... Continue Reading →
“I’m sorry” A phrase I find myself saying a little too often. It’s too familiar. Most times, I am apologizing for something out of my control. I find myself apologizing for my anxiety, my depression, my mental illness. I texted my mom today while she was out and said, “I’m sorry that I am always... Continue Reading →
Hiding behind a smile. I mastered this art, years ago. When I was first diagnosed with anxiety and depression. Hiding because you don't know how people will react. You don't want to be seen as vulnerable or weak. I've been struggling lately. So much that I felt the need to go see my psychiatrist again.... Continue Reading →
Vulnerable. My mental illness struggles make me vulnerable. My anxiety makes me vulnerable. My depression makes me vulnerable. Taking medication for my anxiety disorder and depression make me vulnerable. The world, the stigmas, the whispers, the rumors make me vulnerable. Living with anxiety and depression is exhausting mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I find myself... Continue Reading →
A recent update Here I sit, with the glow of the Christmas tree lights reflecting off the window as it snows outside. It’s the end of November and I decided to finally sit down and write. After a very successful summer with my personal growth being at an all-time high, a new opportunity presented itself.... Continue Reading →
I’ve been waiting to write a piece like this. A piece filled with complete confidence. A story of me slaying my demons. So here it goes… It really began in June when my dad had relatives come over and visit from Germany. We wanted to do all the touristy things with him as he had... Continue Reading →
What do you do when you’re curled up under your weighted blanket and you’re waiting for your phone to notify you that you got a message? What do you do when that doesn’t happen? What do you do when you decide to be vulnerable and tell someone that you’re struggling? What do you do when... Continue Reading →
February…I hope you are better than January. In January I struggled a lot. My anxiety was a lot, it was intense, it was heavy. I felt like I was walking through thick mud, that every step I tried to take was difficult…a struggle. The anxiety I was dealing with was at times so intense that... Continue Reading →
Conquering Mind Madness 
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