It’s the feeling of complete hopelessness, loneliness and sadness. That miserable feeling of being completely lost with no map to guide you; Depression. I’ve battled on and off with my depression for many years now. It’s been present in my family for generations. I still struggle to this day with “the darkness” of depression. Mine feeds off my greatest fears and insecurities. It takes all of my energy, until getting out of bed is next to impossible. There are days where just breathing takes so much effort. On those days, I have no emotions or feelings. I’m just kind of here. Lost in the ongoing war inside my head. Wanting to sleep the day away so that I don’t have to be alone with my thoughts, because there are days I just can’t handle the darkness.
but I like to think of it more as a battle now. A fight I may have to battle for the rest of my life.